Day 156: Let's run away and don't ever look back

So, nothing has ever happened this quickly to me. It's crazy. We might be fools. I guarantee you we're crazy. I'd rather jump off the cliff and take the risk of falling to the rocks below than never jump and regret it the rest of my life. You don't let go of a good thing. You chase the fuck out of it. It's honestly better for me to make a decision based on a whim than to think about it for days. I convince myself that I don't want what I truly do. Even though, I'm completely convinced you deserve so much more than I am, I am irrevocably drawn to you. So I'm in. For now. For life. I don't care, anytime spent with you is time well spent. It doesn't have a price. There is no one. No one that I've had so much in common with. I thought I'd never meet someone with my weird NEED to be cold and get warm when I sleep. Or who gets as annoyed as I do when people are overdramatic about things. Not only that, but your favorite restaurant is Olive Garden. And you hate orange. How is someone as perfect for me as you are, how is it you exist? Or, perhaps I should rephrase: How is it that someone so perfect as you exists and WANTS TO BE WITH ME? You're SO. SO. SO. SO. Handsome. SO. SO. SO. SO. SO. Sweet. SO. SO. SO. SO. funny. SO. SO. SO. So. HOT. SO. SO. SO. SO. Romantic. I must have done something wrong on this broken road that I call my life. Because you could ONLY be an angel, you're too perfect to be anything less.

And in the short time I've known you, this is the happiest I've ever been in my life.

Day 155: Uncharted

So I finally decided what I want to get for my first tattoo. I've decided that its going to be a ship on my back with the word "Uncharted" beneath it. The meaning behind it? Basically it means that I have made some of the best decisions in my life on whims and with little thought. My life is uncharted.When I was expected to fail, I thrived. My life is completely uncharted. I'm a ship sailing in uncharted waters. And I like it that way.

Day 154: Borders and a discussion about my Compulsions.

So today I went to Borders with a bunch of my friends. I spent over two hundred dollars just at that place alone. Yeah, I'm a crazy person. Then, we went to Red Robin and I treated everyone to a meal. Then we went to the Harrisburg Mall and the first thing we did was visit Bath and Body. I have a compulsion with needing for my hands to smell good. Or I won't feel clean. I used to wash my hands until they bled.

That's not my only compulsion. I also have "places" that things go in my room, and if I frequent your house, I will have "places" that my phone goes. Or anything else I may bring over with relative importance to me. If you move said thing from said place, I lose it entirely.

Day 153: LDRs

I have big beliefs in long distance relationships because I have a friend who has been with her long distance boyfriend for three years. They are going strong. They send each other gifts in the mail and talk every single day. They are very much in love. Distance is no match when it comes to love because love can travel any distance. Distance is also a temporary thing that always can be fixed one way or another.

Day 152:We might be fools

So, I talked to someone tonight who's basically everything I've ever looked for in a guy. It was kind of on a whim that we even met each other. He likes my sarcasm. Whereas a LOT of men can't handle it, and get angry. He also is REALLY CUTE. :)

Day 151: Just because we went out on ONE DATE, doesn't mean I'm off the market..

Why do guys automatically assume that if you go on a date with someone else whilist you two AREN'T ANY SENSE OF THE WORD in a "relationship" that that means you have no interest in them? It's called exploring my options. I have them, I'm going to explore them. The next guy needs to WIN ME OVER, big time. There is one who is really really doing it too and he's even far away from me, so that's GOTTA be saying something.

Day 150: I'm proud of who I am.

And I always will be. Don't want to call me? Don't want to text me? Good. Don't. I don't have the time to waste crying over spilled milk. Have you SEEN me lately? Do you know what you're letting go? If we've got some crazy fucking off the charts chemistry and you still aren't sure, you've got something wrong with you. When it comes to relationships, I am the most loyal and dedicated girl that you could ever have. I am a DAMN good girlfriend and I DAMN WELL know it. So go ahead and let me slip through your fingers but when you regret that decision later in life, I won't be welcoming you back with open arms like you want me too. Instead I'll have you shake the hand of the man who knew not to let go.