- money
- the wedding
- everyone's opinions about everything that's really none of their damn business
- money
- money
- money
- moving
- money
- money
- my job
- money
I'm damn done.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Day 341: Sick of arguing.
Sick of arguing about
Monday, January 30, 2012
Day 340: HOLY PISS THESE DAYS ARE GOING BY QUICK
I have twenty five days to think of a new name for this damn blog. I seriously have no ideas. Zero. Zilch. None at all. I hate these things. I swear if I ever have a child, it'll probably nameless for like the first five years of their life. I hate names. Titles. All of that crap.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Day 339: Weird ass book
So I started reading this strange book that I bought forever ago. It's so strange and I'm not even sure what it's about yet. I hate books like this. It's supposedly scary, funny and actiony. WHAT?
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Day 338: One Hundred Book Challenge.
Book #2:
Sisterhood Everlasting by Ann Brashares.
This is the author of the Sisterhood of the traveling pants series, if you've never heard of her, you and I can no longer be friends.
THIS BOOK WAS ABSOLUTELY STUNNING.
I started reading it this morning and have not been able to put it down from the first page.
I can't tell you anything about the plot without giving it all away.
God bless her and her complicated plots.
If I write like anyone, it'd be Ann Brashares.
Sisterhood Everlasting by Ann Brashares.
This is the author of the Sisterhood of the traveling pants series, if you've never heard of her, you and I can no longer be friends.
THIS BOOK WAS ABSOLUTELY STUNNING.
I started reading it this morning and have not been able to put it down from the first page.
I can't tell you anything about the plot without giving it all away.
God bless her and her complicated plots.
If I write like anyone, it'd be Ann Brashares.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Day 337: Hollywood Casino.
I'm honestly getting really tired of my job at the casino. It isn't because the management is bad. Honestly, the management is better than any other place I've worked before. It has nothing to do with that. The pay is great and the benefits are great. Don't get me wrong I love my job. I love my customers. I love to work. I love feeling like I have an actual purpose. Sometimes my managers and supervisors even instill the feeling of "We can't do this without you". When everywhere else I've worked, the managers are doing everything within their power to let you know you're replaceable.
The problem is not management.
The problem is not the perks.
The problem is not the customers. (though I feel I have had more than my fairshare of dealing with drunks)
The problem is not the job.
The problem is my coworkers.
Now, not all of them are bad. In fact, most of them are a pleasure to work with. The people I'm speaking of are about 10% of the people I work with. If even that.
I have never worked somewhere where my coworkers were so keen to get each other in trouble. It's almost as if everyone is looking for a way to get everyone else fired. Instead of talking to each other when a problem arises, they run immediately to supervisors and management in a "Mommy! MOMMY! GUESS WHAT BIG SISTER DID?" Sort of way and it's ridiculous. If anything, the coworkers rallied around each other when management attempted to point fingers at us lowlies when a problem arose.
You don't know who to talk to. Who to trust with anything. Who to smile at and embrace. And who to turn from and walk away. It's hard to decipher a fake smile from a true one.
It wasn't always this way. When I first started we were a family. A lot of the people I started with either switched departments or got fired or quit.
That's when all the newbies started rolling in. And though the ones I'm speaking of have masterful ways of hiding it, they don't want to be here. They don't like this job and they're only here because whatever they truly wanted to do in the casino, wasn't hiring at the time.
I miss how it used to be. Back when I didn't have to drag myself regretfully out of bed every day to go to work. Back when I used to get EXCITED to be going to work. I don't like this, I don't like this feeling of fear and tired sadness every time I walk in that building. I don't like having my guard up when the new kids come in. I miss being able to act so familiar with everyone but now you don't know who to tell what. You aren't sure who is truly your friend and who has just been pretending this whole time.
This isn't how it should be.
This is how it is though.
And I hate it.
:(
The problem is not management.
The problem is not the perks.
The problem is not the customers. (though I feel I have had more than my fairshare of dealing with drunks)
The problem is not the job.
The problem is my coworkers.
Now, not all of them are bad. In fact, most of them are a pleasure to work with. The people I'm speaking of are about 10% of the people I work with. If even that.
I have never worked somewhere where my coworkers were so keen to get each other in trouble. It's almost as if everyone is looking for a way to get everyone else fired. Instead of talking to each other when a problem arises, they run immediately to supervisors and management in a "Mommy! MOMMY! GUESS WHAT BIG SISTER DID?" Sort of way and it's ridiculous. If anything, the coworkers rallied around each other when management attempted to point fingers at us lowlies when a problem arose.
You don't know who to talk to. Who to trust with anything. Who to smile at and embrace. And who to turn from and walk away. It's hard to decipher a fake smile from a true one.
It wasn't always this way. When I first started we were a family. A lot of the people I started with either switched departments or got fired or quit.
That's when all the newbies started rolling in. And though the ones I'm speaking of have masterful ways of hiding it, they don't want to be here. They don't like this job and they're only here because whatever they truly wanted to do in the casino, wasn't hiring at the time.
I miss how it used to be. Back when I didn't have to drag myself regretfully out of bed every day to go to work. Back when I used to get EXCITED to be going to work. I don't like this, I don't like this feeling of fear and tired sadness every time I walk in that building. I don't like having my guard up when the new kids come in. I miss being able to act so familiar with everyone but now you don't know who to tell what. You aren't sure who is truly your friend and who has just been pretending this whole time.
This isn't how it should be.
This is how it is though.
And I hate it.
:(
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Day 336: One Hundred Book Challenge
Apparently there's thing going around that people had a new years resolution to read a hundred books this year. It probably happens every year, but I decided that I'd do that too. I can read a hundred books in a hundred days if I really put my mind to it but I have a full time job and a wedding to plan, so it may actually be a challenge to get in one hundred books by the years end.
Anyway, I finished World War Z by Max Brooks this month and it was a lot better than I had expected it to be. In fact, one chapter almost made me cry, not out of fear, but out of true emotional connections to the characters in the book.
It's basically about a zombie war. In this book, it's written from the voices of the people who fought in/survived the zombie take over and their accounts of how it all went down. It's from the voices of generals, soldiers, children who lost family, children who kept their family but it would never be the same, disabled people, nerds, everyone and it's absolutely awesome and I'd definitely recommend it to anyone who has even the slightest interest in Zombies.
Anyway, I finished World War Z by Max Brooks this month and it was a lot better than I had expected it to be. In fact, one chapter almost made me cry, not out of fear, but out of true emotional connections to the characters in the book.
It's basically about a zombie war. In this book, it's written from the voices of the people who fought in/survived the zombie take over and their accounts of how it all went down. It's from the voices of generals, soldiers, children who lost family, children who kept their family but it would never be the same, disabled people, nerds, everyone and it's absolutely awesome and I'd definitely recommend it to anyone who has even the slightest interest in Zombies.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Day 335: SECRETS REVEALED
So, today, we finally revealed our secret.
Drew and I are engaged.
You're reading the blog of the future Mrs.Gardner.
I'm so excited. He's everything to me. There's absolutely no one who could be a more perfect fit to me than Drew.
Here's to my future. Full of promise :)
Drew and I are engaged.
You're reading the blog of the future Mrs.Gardner.
I'm so excited. He's everything to me. There's absolutely no one who could be a more perfect fit to me than Drew.
Here's to my future. Full of promise :)
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