Day 310: HAPPY ALMOST NEW YEAR

Day 309: One thing I hate most

Is that moment when you knew you wanted to look up a song, but you can't remember the name. So you're like, well that's okay, I'll just type the lyrics into google and it'll tell me. Then you can't remember any of the lyrics. It's like your brain is saying "fuck you".

Day 308: This computer is being a bitch

My patience is running very thin.

Day 307: Facebook is being a bitch

is anyone else having problems logging onto their facebook lately? Mine has been pissing me the hell off.

Day 306: So I tell myself that I'll be strong...

We didn't get the apartment. It just means that we weren't meant to have it, I suppose. I'm still disappointed but shit happens. We will get out somehow and somehow soon. It will happen. You have to look for that silver lining.

Day 305: Does anyone else feel...

Like this year went by really fast? It feels like just yesterday I was in a bullshit, going nowhere job and relationship. It feels like just yesterday that I just about shit my pants over what the casino was offering me as starting pay. It feels like It feels like just yesterday that I was getting my student loan denied. It feels like just yesterday that I got published for the THIRD time in my life. It feels like just yesterday that I hurt my hip. It feels like just yesterday that I was celebrating an ENTIRE year of NO HOSPITAL TRIPS for me. It seems like just yesterday it was New Years Day 2011...

Day 304: CHRISTMAS GIFTS

This was my second christmas with my baby, which automatically makes it the most amazing christmas ever. :) I never thought I'd get a second Christmas with my soulmate. :') He also got me the most amazing and beautiful ring for christmas.

I didn't want you to see my hair. It's a damn mess right now. But yes, that's opal which is my favorite gemstone.

Along with my baby's amazing ring I also got:

• A Keurig coffee maker
• A blender
• Three Straightening irons
• A Hair blow dryer
• A pillow that plays soft music through my ipod
• A GEORGE FUCKING FOREMAN GRILL
• Glasses
• silverware
• photo frames
• Nail polish
• Pillow pets out the asshole
• CANDY SO MUCH FUCKING CANDY
• Coasters
• MOCASSINS

It was an exciting christmas all around.

Day 303: There is a girl that gives a shit behind this wall.

I give off this air that I don't care about what anyone says about me. I give off this strong vibe, like you can't hurt me. Those close enough to me know that it isn't true. Not at all. And I'm sick of getting hurt.

Day 302: Damn son

Only 63 days left! HOLY SHIT.

Day 301: Reasons Why You May Get Deleted.

So, I'm going on a mass deletion on my friends on facebook. I am going through a rough time right now, and I don't particularly care anymore. I've had my final straw with the bullshit and I'm now deleting the bullshit from my news feed. There are a couple different reasons you could get deleted. I have been deleting people subtly for about a week now. Here are the reasons I am deleting people in no order:

1.) You pop up in my news feed and I don't know who the fuck you are or how we became friends, I have been known to go on drunken "add friend" binges where I suddenly get three million notifications about "accepted friend requests" I don't ever remember making.

2.) You only ever added me because you were hoping to get into my pants and are now harassing me via my facebook because you're pissed because I'm with someone who wants me for more than just my veej.

3.) You pop in my news feed and I read whatever bullshit you posted and I say aloud "NO ONE GIVES A SHIT". This is directed towards people who post about making a fucking sandwhich, then post about the shit they are taking and then post about going out with their friends. It's a bunch of hohum stupid shit every five minutes. I don't need to know every minute of your stupid life.

4.) You post about drugs frequently. I feel no need to associate myself with the scum of the earth, thanks.

5.) Your relationship status changes every two fucking days.

6.) You're a raging whoresorus Rex. And I'm honestly afraid that if you breathed on me, I'd catch all forty seven STDs you have.

7.) You have that stupid ass new facebook layout that pisses my laptop off and I don't give enough of a shit about you to deal with the thirty damn minutes it takes for my laptop to load your fucking page.

8.) I frequently have to delete your comments from my statuses because you're always being an asswad and I'm tired of dealing with your bullshit.

9.) I don't trust that you aren't involved in this horror story shit that's going on at the high school. I see no reason to keep a bunch of people with psychotic murderous tendencies on my facebook.

10.)  You're a teenage mother who doesn't have a single picture of her baby on her facebook and I see only statuses about you going out and partying or your goddamn boy drama than taking care of your baby. I hate hate hate women who do this. You should have given your child up to someone who actually wanted them. You disgust me, you piece of trash. Everything you post makes me hate you more.

11.) You're a bitch. If all your statuses are about how you think you're the hottest fucking piece of shit out there and demeaning people for being fat or "ugly", I'm deleting you. You're the ugly one. Beauty isn't what's on the outside, it's what's on the inside. And you know what you look like on the inside? A BIG STEAMING PILE OF SHIT. Go fuck yourself since you think you're so fucking amazing.

12.) All your statuses are all "woe is me" and depressing when it's about some fucking breakup or your parents won't let you out past your fucking curfew, THERE ARE FAR WORSE THINGS. Your parents aren't beating you. And your Ex boyfriend was probably fucking someone behind your back, you're better off. So quit crying about it all over your fucking facebook.

13.) You lie.

14.) Your very existance pisses me off.

15.) All of your pictures have your tits hanging out so much that I can practically see your nipples. Or your version of shorts is anything that covers your veej. Anything longer than that you refer to as "pants".



You could also be multiple things at once. If you get deleted, one of these is the reasons why. I no longer want contact with you. Don't add me back until you've actually got your shit in order.

Day 300: Seriously Can't Wait for January

I need out of this fucking place.

Day 299: How NOT make a girl be into you.

So, there is this guy who has been repeatedly trying to get with me since I started working at the casino. I have taken an oath not to name names on here when it comes to bitching so I won't, but the people who are closest to me know exactly who he is. At one point, I may have considered him but then he started TELLING me how I felt about him and after only knowing me a few months, starts telling me he loves me. So, naturally, I strayed away from that situation because I'm sorry, that's a little bit psychotic. I also found out that he goes around describing the perfect way to murder someone. I'm not touching that with a THOUSAND foot pole, thank you very much. I'm not trying to end up on the side of the road dead in the middle of some desert that no one has ever heard of. ANYWHORE, there was a point to this mindless rambling,

So, I recently started dating my boyfriend again. I say again, because we dated before.

He found out about it.

I made sure he knew

I was trying to keep him off my ass.

He starts being an asshole. A raging asshat. Professing that he knows he's hot and that he's the shit and giving me attitude about every damn little damn thing I said to him. Does he honestly think that's going to make me come to him? Why are guys so damn stupid?

Day 298: Baby Names As Per Request.

A friend posted that they would like for me to post all my baby name ideas.

If I have a son, the first I would like to name Connor Landon. It's a very Irish name. My name is extremely Irish as well. I want my child to be as proud of their heritage as I am.

As far as other boys, I like:

• Noah
• Jack
• John
• Azrin
• Colin
• Kolt

For Girls, which I hope to only have one, if I do have any, I want to name my first Novalee. :)

If I have more than one girl:

• Annabelle
• Teagan
• Peyton
• Sophia
• Isabella

Day 297: Shit yourself quotes from Tracy's house!

So tonight, Drew, Tamara, Owen and I all had a gathering at Tracy's house to play Grand Theft Auto and shoot the shit and torment the cat and etc and etc. These are quotes from that night. Because there is no way that that many of us can get together and hilarity not ensue.

Tracy: *playing GTA* Here's the new rule, if you can't fit underneath my car and live, you're too fat and deserve to die.

Erin: *playing GTA and spies someone smoking a cigarette* SMOKING IS BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH *runs them over*

Erin: *playing GTA* THE LIGHT IS GREEN GO ALREADY *rams into the back of a taxi, continues to drive through the next red light* FUCK RED LIGHTS, I'M LOOKING FOR PROSTITUTES!
Drew: And you wonder why I don't trust you to drive

I also love how in that game, there can be a pile of dead bodies on the sidewalk and people will just keep walking along like there's nothing wrong. It's ridiculous.

Day 296: Baby names.

Tonight at the casino, me and my supervisor who is preggers were talking about baby names. I have a list of them. I really just want boys but knowing that, I will probably have nothing but girls. I want to give them names that no one else will have because I want them to feel unique and cared about.

Day 295: Jerk of the night

So tonight at work, it was pretty steady but no one made me mad. I had no patience for anyone though, I usually never do. I hate when the people get to the front of a line and there is people behind them and they decide to take forever to decide what they want to order when they have had plenty of time while they were waiting in line to figure out what the hell they want. OR when they decide that they just MUST pay for half of their order in all change. Are you serious right now?

Anyway, besides those regular pains in the asses, there was no one exceptionally mean until the end of my shift. His order was up for two seconds and he began freaking out on me to give it to him before it got cold and proceeded to say to his wife loudly that he doesn't understand why the casino hired "fucking retards" like me.

Day 294: MY BACK HURTS

That is all.

Day 293: EARLY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS

So I went over to my best best bester bestest bestererest besteresterest friend's house today for a bit of an early Christmas and we exchanged gifts, had macaroni and cheese and I played with her son until my hips ached. (I love that kid so much you have no fucking idea.)

I mean look at his face, he's so fucking adorable. How can you not love him???? You can't love him more than I do though. It's an intense kind of love, he's basically my world. <3 <3 <3 <3

Alright, back to christmas presents, much to the dismay of my parents, my best friend did not only buy me just the dinosaur pillow pet that you saw in the first picture....

Did NOT only buy me TWO pillow pets..

BUT THREE NEW PILLOW PETS.

I may or may not have shit my pants.

Day 292: Where do you discover new music?

I don't know whether or not I've blogged about this before and I'm way too lazy to go and look through all nearly THREE HUNDRED blogs to find it if I did, but I get asked how on earth it's possible for me to be into all the artists that I am and where I found them. Honestly, it's really weird, I find my new music through either commercials on tv or I do this thing where I look up music videos that fans make where they put a couple from a book/movie together, there's always some really cool songs in those. That's what got me into Hurts. I heard Illuminated through one of those. I also discover new music through my friends' facebooks, when they put up music videos and such.

Itunes also does this thing where it recommends songs and artists to you based off of the other songs that you have bought, I find some new artists through there.

Also, youtube Chester See, Andrew Garcia, JR Aquino, Sam Tsui, Meekakitty, Tyler Ward, all of them are absolutely amazing and they are up and coming artists. I love them all. Youtube is an awesome place to discover new talent.

Day 291: What will happen with my blog after a year?

I was discussing this with the boo in the car today. I think I'm going to keep it going, I'm just going to turn it into an everyday thing. I don't want to stop. It's kind of like a way for me to blow off stress without having to go punt a baby. It's healthier. And I enjoy it. Somedays I have nothing to say but other days if I didn't have this blog, I might have broken something. If you have read some of said blogs, you'd know why. In fact it's probably still surprising that I didn't throw my laptop while typing some of those. I tend to bottle my emotions until they burst and EMOTION GETS ON EVERYTHING. And that shit takes FOREVER to get off of the walls. Having this blog has helped me deal with some of the shit I've had to go through this past year and I'm sure it will continue to help me in the future. Also, some people keep up with going on's in life by reading my blog. So I shall continue to keep this until I can no longer type. Until then, you can always expect to see a blog from me. They might not always be pretty, they may not always be long, they may not always have something interesting to say, but there will be a blog. :)

Day 290: What "offends" you

I love when people make covers of other people's music and they cut out not only swearing but other weird things in the song that they considered offensive. Some of it can be as stupid as the word "drug" or mentioning of a woman being promiscuous with another man. Seriously? It's a song.

Day 289: Girls who won't let their boyfriends talk to other girls.

So, I think that women who have jealousy issues are seriously a pain in the ass. There happens to be a girl whom I may or may not work with that won't let her boyfriend talk to other girls yet she texts all the men she wants to. If you're that insecure about your relationship with him why don't you just break up? If he wanted to cheat on you, I'm sure he would have by now. You've been together forever and you're still going to try and give him rules and treat him like he's your child and not your boyfriend. Here's my relationship advice for the day; Don't make rules for your significant other. They aren't your kid, they are your boo. You need to treat them like you trust them. What is a relationship without trust? They chose to be with you for a reason, not so they could cheat on you. Let them have friends.

Day 288: Third Shift

I work the grave shift at work. I just thought I would let you know that if you are ever considering working third shift anywhere, you shouldn't. I feel like I never seen anyone or talk to anyone. I become attention starved and talk my boyfriend's damn ear off every time I see him because I never get to really truly have a conversation with anyone. The majority of my customers don't want to stand there and make my day by talking to me no matter how hard I try to iniate some kind of conversation with them. They just want me to give them their food and leave them alone. :(

Day 287: "This Relationship Is Purely Based Off of Mutual Hatred For Each Other"

These happen to be quotes from Drew and I's date today. People are probably going to think we hate each other that don't know us. It's just how we are. We were always like this. He seriously makes me happier than anyone else does/did/will ever do.

Erin: I brought you a gingerbread cookie. It was made with real gingers.

Drew: I thought you were going to be a stripper? You shouldn't be afraid of poles.
Erin: I hate you so much. I can't even dance!

Drew: The first thing you turn to is a stripper or a prostitute when you're afraid you're going to lose your job. I'm not sure whether or not I should be scared.
Erin: That just tells you what high self esteem I have. The only thing I know I'm good at is taking off my clothes.

*now for this quote you have to realize that I had fiddled with the damn chair for the entirety of our ride to the restaurant and couldn't make it work*
Erin: I'm not getting in the car until you fix this chair!
Drew:*fixes it in like two seconds*
Erin: *starts to defend herself then notices something shiny under the chair* OH! LOOK A QUARTER!

Day 286: Screaming Lyrics

How do you sing when you're by yourself? Are you like me? I blast the volume as if I'm attempting to deafen my other ear and scream the lyrics at the top of my lungs and dance like I'm on every drug out there. Honestly, I've considered recording it but I'm pretty sure I would lose every friend I have and my parents would disown me and smear raw meat on me when I am asleep and allow the dog to kill me. That's how horrible it is. You'll basically want to remove the part of your brain that remembers watching it and shove it up your ass.

Day 285: Relationship News, Since it's REALLY YOUR BUSINESS

I had my relationship status hidden from everyone on facebook. I forgot to make it public again after me and Ben broke up. I had hidden it because I didn't want to deal with the drama. Everyone would automatically assume that it had ended on bad terms and either bad mouth me or him or both of us. I didn't want or need that. Neither did he. He didn't do anything wrong. We just weren't meant for each other. I did the breaking up. No tears were spilled. It just wasn't it.

So anyway, not that I give a damn about anyone's opinion but yes, I have indeed gotten back together with one of my exes. Now I started my blog WAY after he and I had broken up. His name is Drew. If you were around before that, you know him. And I don't really give a shit what the peanut gallery may have told you about him and I. If I hadn't fucked it up a year ago, we seriously would have made the perfect couple. I made a whole bunch of shitty mistakes with him and he was right in leaving me. I grew up an assload after we parted ways. I changed. For the better. We're still perfect for one another, but now I'm mature enough for a relationship. I wasn't back then.

Day 284: Things Erin Has Done Whilist Drunk

I had nothing else to blog about today. And everyone has those "One time when I was drunk off my ass, I humped a statue of George Washington stories" so I thought I would share the VERY FEW stories I have from being drunk.

I made a joke that wasn't funny. At all. And proceeded to nearly wet my pants laughing at myself and rolled off the bed.

I ate my weight in pizza. And got way too fucking excited about breadsticks.

I was avidly denying that I was drunk whilist stripping.

I flirted with a MUCH older man. I kept touching his hand and telling him he was "SO FUNNY".

Honestly, when I'm drunk it can either go one of two ways, I either revert back to being a toddler and I think EVERYTHING is hilarious. Including the color of your shirt, the bumps on the cieling and air. Or you have to repeatedly tell me to put my clothes back on and to stop stroking your arm while staring at you in what I think is a sexual gaze when it really just looks like I've licked windows all my life.

Day 283: Once A Year, I hate my life.

I always send out a ton of Christmas cards each year. And When I say a ton, I don't mean ten. I mean like.. close to one hundred. I decided to give one to every person that I work with too. Oh my god. I wish I wasn't a nice person sometimes.

Day 282: Why your relationship is failing.

I know I'd be the last person that anyone would go to for relationship advice, but a year ago, I fucked up a relationship that could have been great because I did everything wrong and it took until someone I dated treating me the same way that I treated that man for me to realize every mistake I've ever made with any of my previous boyfriends, I could point out every single point that the relationship started heading south. I used to flip shit on my boyfriends for little stupid things before they even got the opportunity to explain themselves. I used to throw a fit if they wouldn't respond to a message within twenty minutes. I used to give them no room to breathe. I used to smother them. I used to fall in love too quickly. I used to judge them. I used to let them have no friends. I used to be just perpetually mad at them for one thing for another.

I'm not like that anymore.
But it's too late now.
Everyone changes.
Everyone grows.

Day 281: The One that Got Away.

I hate this song with a passion. Mostly because it hit home.

Day 280: People You Shouldn't Cover. (Dedicated to Lyssa)

So Glee decided to do a Cover of "Sing" by My Chemical Romance. I love My Chemical Romance. One of my favorite people told me about it so I looked it up and also found that the Glee Project or whatever also did one. They were both awful. No one can do My Chemical Romance but My Chemical Romance. Just leave them alone. It's a talent only they have.