Day 356: First Kiss(es)

So, there was a survey going around on youtube awhile ago, I was just going back through someone's videos and I found it. The first question was about your first kiss. Well, I thought I would do a blog on all my first kisses, that's the nice thing about kissing, whenever you're with someone new, it's a new experience. and don't you worry, there will be the whole gooey gross talk about my first kiss with Drew and all that "I knew it'd be him" jazz. AT THE END. or maybe the middle. or maybe in the next blog.

SO YOU HAVE TO READ THE WHOLE BLOG TO FIND OUT.

Now, the first time I was ever kissed by a boy was back in the beginning of my sophomore year. He was my first high school boyfriend. It wasn't a "real" boyfriend. There were no emotions in that relationship. At all. It was just the whole "let's be in a relationship because that makes us cool." and he was a junior, so that made me super cool. He was, at the time, one of my best friends, and he liked me, but I didn't like him. Not that way, but I didn't want to not give him a chance, so I did, but I couldn't get over the creepiness of him being like family. He went to kiss me in the hallway before class, and I legitimately DODGED IT, and he kissed my cheek. And I had to wipe slobber off of my face. We broke up the next day.

Now, my first real boyfriend was my Junior year in High school and we ended up dating for almost two years.    He was my first real kiss. And the first time he kissed me was in transition between classes. When we started dating, we had four classes in a row together, it was right after the fourth class where we'd go our separate ways, he bent down (because I'm like five foot nothing and shorter than fucking everyone) and kissed my cheek and I just stared at him because I didn't even understand what happened. The first time he kiss kissed me was right after he took me to see some sappy romance movie, he kissed me and I just sat there and didn't even react. I didn't know how. I'd never been kissed before. So I'd imagine as a first kiss, I basically sucked. haha

It's pretty awful, but I can't remember Nick and I's first kiss. And I almost dated that kid for a full year. He was the humongous part of my life and I can't even recall that first kiss. I remember the first I love you, the first fight, the first school dance, the first gift he gave me and practically every other thing that happened, but I can't pull the first kiss from my memory. DAMN SON. Nor can I remember Chris's. I don't think it's because they weren't special, I think maybe I've spent so much time trying to forget everything about both of them that I've erased those memories.

I do remember my first kiss with Ryan. It was up in his bedroom, when I told him that was the whole thing holding me back from getting over the fact that he'd been my best friend since ninth grade, that we hadn't kissed. And we hadn't kissed because I was afraid it would change everything about our friendship and the close relationship we had before we decided to take it to the next level. Guess what? We no longer speak. Guess I was right all along, huh?

I can't remember much about my first kiss with Max. I have a feeling it was on New Years Night, back when my parents were still super strict about the getting home before midnight thing. And it was wet. And I'm pretty sure our lips touched. Yup, pretty sure I just spent a hell load of time trying to forget.

DREW. I remember everything about Drew. But I don't think you realllllllllllllllllllly wanna know about him. Not today. Maybe tomorrow. ;)